Happy Easter

Well easter morning is here... the easter bunny visited our house. The boys got soccer balls, money, jelly beans, and of course an easter bunny each.

We have been sick all last week. I was the least effected by it. The youngest is getting over it. I believe so is my oldest. My husband has it now the worst. I ended up missing a couple of days of work over it. We missed my grandma's birthday party because of it.

The boys and I colored eggs yesterday.

I'm not saying much I know... but it is a holiday... maybe I should put aside my confusion and questions for a day. Do what is best for the family... and just pretend everything is peachy.

Hope you all have a blessed holiday! God bless and touch you all!

Where do I go from here....

Ok... This is my first time blogging, and it might just be horrible to say this... but I really don't want anyone that knows me to see it. Here I am... 41... married... 2 young boys.... and where do I go from here... how did I get here... is this all it's about?

I have always been a very social person... but somehow married a person with depression problems... someone that without medication has to get angry to breath. Someone that doesn't like to take medication. I'm not sure how I didn't see it before I married... sure there were a few signs, but somehow you always read the signs after you missed them.

My mother passed away when my oldest was 4 months old... one of her last things that she said to me was that she was proud of me for staying married... that I put up with a lot and she didn't ever think I would put up with so much. The last thing she mouthed to me was I love you... and ohhh how I miss her and love her.

My dad says he will support me on my decision... yet when I left the once... he threw me back saying he was scared that my hubby would hurt himself if I didn't go back. Also, gives me a guilt trip on how the boys need their dad.

So now I sound like a whiny baby! But I created this so I could whine and maybe not be totally crazy touched... but touched in a good way... and so that maybe I can touch someones life in a good way. So that when my boys grow up that people will not say both your parents are "touched".