Being driven a short distance....

Let us see.... how do we start this one? My dad is in his 70s. Somehow got the bright idea that it would be good to go to a foreign country and marry a 32 year old! OH MY!

He doesn't tell me or my brother that he has a passport and tickets to go on the 29th of May, but he does tell my husband. Makes him promise not to tell me. Do you know how much trouble my husband would be in if he didn't tell me that? Do you not think I wouldn't go to the lawyer right then and there and divorce him? Because I would!

If they don't remember, I am the one that when a boyfriend showed up without a job or anything way back when... took him to the bus station and bought him a one way ticket to Texas!

It is so horrible to be lonely. I know how much my dad misses my mom. I want him out here with us. Not in the same house but next door. I want him to share meals with us... etc. My children are starving for grandparent attention. I know our attention isn't the same as a partner a mate, but I don't understand why he has to go to such an extreme. Why does he fool himself into thinking a 32 year old will have the same hopes dreams and longings as someone in their 70s? It's a lovely fantasy... but not reality.

You can be lonely even when you are married. You can be lonely even if you are in a middle of a crowd and busier than all get out. How can you stop that empty horrible feeling? That ache inside that you are missing?

I love my father so much. I wish I could help him.... I was horrible to him... I cursed and told him I would never see him again if he did such a thing. I didn't say it in a nice way at all. I tattled on him to my brother, who I believe did about the same talk to him I did. Dad says he will not do it because we feel so strongly about it.

He will tease me about it though. He has gotten the advise of his friend, who told him in a nicer way the same thing I did. Let us see if he tells the people that were going with him. If he tells that girl that is waiting for him... who is waiting to come to the USA.

Until then I feel I'm on a short drive... to being crazy. Help me communicate to my father in a good way instead of the mean way I have. I need strength, kindness, and sometimes I need to be a little touched... Thank you for all my friends around that I have been able to vent to.... and on here being able to vent. :)